Dumped before dated

I never put myself out there
Rejection is not nice
But I did put myself out there
Every letter and every text
With passion and truth
Truth unacknowledged
I remember telling you, how I felt
And then I remember how it felt
When, thankyou was all that was replied.
I angry cried.
See I always wear my emotions on my sleeve.
And I always try to give people what I
Would want out of people.
Money.never asked
Sex. I didn’t want
Getting to know you
Spending time, thats all I needed.
Even through all the signs and ghosting
I still tried to put me out there
With you, with hope, with uncertain paths.
And all I wanted was for you to acknowledge that,
Acknowledge me
I tried to force a vibe that didn’t exist
I tried to connect to a barbed wire being.
Tonight It touched me
Like a lighting bolt
Pulsing through my soul
You dumped me before you dated me.
You won’t make time because
You have no desire to know me,
I’m not the woman you want
Am I okay no I’m not
It stings alittle.
But here’s something that stings more
I walked right into the no zone
The “friendzone” as they say
And I knew that’s where I’d be parked.
I’m angry,I’m hurt, I’m numb
But mostly I’m disappointed
And I could quote a country song
And say I hope whomever you find, I hope she breaks your heart
But that wouldn’t be me
That wouldn’t be the person who
Loves past the pain,
Who is there for everyone
When only a couple are there for me
No that wouldn’t be the heart
who bleeds, cries, breaks, and bruises.
Oh no that wouldn’t be me
I got dumped before I was dated.
And I’ll tell you it feels like shit
When you know you have so much
To offer and the right love to share
And the warmth hugs and the realist care.
Waiting and waiting and waiting
For nothing,no time,no desire
I guess I am the person to say screw it, I’m tapping out
Let that toxic feelings, love, and care shit be for other people.
I hope wherever you land
And with whom
I hope she never cares like I did,
Checks on you like I did
Remembers the important things
Like I did.
I hope she makes you feel
Like I feel
Dumped before you were dated.